I do not know what I feel. D:

Yesterday when I called my mother felt so good to be talking to her and so badly because I am very sad these last few days, but do not know why "things are not what they seem" here is saying.HAHAH The only thing that comforts me here are my friends who I love very much. "Tasia, Aston, Emily, Annika. I sometimes have bouts of crying because I feel wronged, and I start to cry. Until I cry about no more tears in my body. Sometimes only to sleep. But the worst is I can not write in my language. Because I think a blog is a personal thing, I was threatened, the type that if I did not write in English would have to leave the house. I thought it was unnecessary and not needed it because people understand that train I need my space. and sometimes I need a room for me. I feel spied on all the time. But I feel I'll soon be well. HAHAH